i hate how much this has affected me. but after what she did, i’ve just lost a lot of respect and trust in her.

i remember seeing her in the messengers around the time it came out and taking an instant liking to her. and then, seeing all of her interviews for twilight promo, i fell in love with her. she was just so genuine and honest, and she was herself. i loved that so much.

she has been someone i looked up to for almost four years, so i’m extremely hurt. and i feel like i have a right to be because i’m a fan and she went against everything that i thought she was. 

so no, you’re not going to see any kristen bashing. i just said all i’m going to say about it. i’m not sure if i’m going to be able to forgive her or how long it’s going to take for me to forgive her, but i do want to. i really do.